Unworthy and the Worthy One .,

I just had my shower . And I was thinking, I thought ... Such people aren't worthy of my anger . I got so pissed off prolly because I thought they mattered to me . But then again , no man . Why must I rant about them ? Hahaha no nononon nuuuuuu .. If I was in Charms class , I would concoct a potion to forget about them . Hehe .

Best Friend , you didn't reply moi email . Just cos I took almost a month to reply you doesn't mean you can do that too ! I got a piece of almost good news to tell you too . Hello Jean , do you still remember me ? Am I forgotten ?? Don'ttttttttt ever do that . This I won't forgive you . I was looking through the tiny book you asked Justin to give me for my birthday . I didn't know you wrote three entries in it !! I saw only two . Yea 3rd year you ain't spending my birthday with me . Haha , I cried and it broke your heart ? I never knew that either silly .

Once upon a time,
there was a stubborn girl
who got angry easily
and placated easily.

But there was nothing
easy about her.
She was the most complicated, emotional,
sentimental thing.

& I loved her
for it.

You think she knows?

Yes Jean dearest, now that you've written it in the book . I do know it . I love you too . We always talk about my feelings in our emails but I decided i am going to let everyone know how I feel about you . Hahahaha, I sound like a lesbian . Hoho girls are still attractive to me (winks) . I promised I will forgive you if that silly event ever takes place . But you will never break my heart like how my other bestfriend did before right ?

It's been .. OMG WE HAVE KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR 8 YEARS ! I just counted with my fingers and WE ARE STILL COUNTING RIGHT ?! You better say yes ! Even though we are sooooo distant but we are always in one another's hearts forever and ever . I miss you Jean . I miss having a best friend around . I know you cannot return so often although you wish to see my pretty face (haha) but I forgive you la . When I say I am going to Melbourne to find you , count me on that , even if I have to swim over , I will do it . Just a matter of time . Sorry I disappointed you the other time >:( I missyyyingg you lots lots . If only we could be with each other right , like here in Singapore. You stop flirting with all your friends in Aussie la , you belong to me AND ONLY ME ! Tell them to all get lost when I come -..- Hahahaha ,,

When are you going to teach me how to smoke ? (HOHO) I love you , and you're very important to me . If something ever happens to me , TRY NOT to forget me when you're still in your right mind till you kena dementia . HAHAHA ! If someone better than me comes by , are you going to replace me ?? I wouldn't ever do that . Maybe you can put your tomb beside me next time . HAHA !! Special right ? Bffs side by side .. Okay , the night is making me talk bs . Yes yes ,, I know you miss me and love me too . See , I know you so well enough to know what you'll say . To the friends with Jean , please help me take good care of my very important friend okay? Protect her and listen to her rants on my behalf . Don't bully her !! Or you will get it from me , I promise .

I love you Jean Wong of 12th Nov 1989 .
From Stephanie Howe of 12th May 1989 .